Monday, February 22, 2010

过年的点点滴滴

在农历新年里发生太多太多的事,有快乐的,幸福的, 担忧的,伤心的,感动的,提升的,温馨的。。。。一切都在这几天发生。今年我提早回家,有好多机会和婆婆单独的相处,和妈妈的很棒的对话,和爸爸的拥抱与陪伴,和弟妹们的喜悦共处,让我有很多难忘的回忆。

在初四中午,爸爸的身体像之前几次一样,身体积水,呼吸困难, 我和妈妈决定带他到医院治疗,也许是农历新年的原故吧,爸爸并不那么的配合,却说了,或创造了很多的困难。对我们来说是很多的难处,必需不段的转换能量与心情。我的心情是有点矛盾,更拥有足够的同理心去了解他,唯一的方法是不停的沟通,站在他的立场和心情,也表明我们对他的关心和爱护。当天我们在急护病房里足足呆了九个小时,爸爸的心情渐渐的平息,他开始接受了。

我再一次的学习,人生中就是不段的学习。宇宙给了我一个新的挑战,我知道很快就会过去,可是唯一可以面对的是以平静的心,去支持他。我可以选择以负面的情绪去对代,也可以选择勇敢的接受而正面的去面对。那答案显得更清楚了。同时,在医院里,我当天也做了很多有意义的事,包括为中东来的医生帮病人翻译,引导妹妹去看事物的不同。

我选择在医院陪伴爸爸一个夜晚,这是我人生中的第一次,我体验妈妈平时的感受,体验爸爸的痛,看到肉体上的伤痛,和情绪的伤痛,(Physical Pain Vs Emotional Pain) 都让人好难受,可是我们都有选择,选择从经验中去改变,然侯发现,这一切都让我们成长。

第一次在医院里看日出,刚刚和爸爸度过他呼吸困难的情节,好不容易他平静下来,睡得很熟,看他睡得很好,是我最幸福的一刻,再看着天空刚浮现的日出,阳光照着病人们的脸,我看见希望。照在护士们,清洁工人的身上, 我的心里是充满满满的感激。

感激宇宙给我这么美满快乐的家,那么明白事理的父母,感谢Kev的支持,感谢弟弟和妹妹所做的一切。在爸爸身上学到太多太多了,他为生命的努力,面对他最害怕的针,面对痛。爸爸还在医院治疗,我相信他很快就会康复,在这里我为他祈祷,让他能拥有个键康,多资多彩,幸福的人生。

光 Light!


孩子的名子叫光,他的妈妈唤他叫 Hikaru-Chan。妈妈从日本远嫁而来的新娘,本来话就很少,随着留在这里的日子越久,也变得更加寡言,大部分的时间,妈妈只是从这窗口看外面的世界,看不远处的山,看遥远的孩子放风争,有时侯,不懂看见了甚么,她嘴角抹着微风留下痕迹般的微笑,更像是用尖尖的笔画一道浅浅的线,也只有这样;妈妈的笑容幅度较阔的时间,大概也只有在和光相处的时侯了。

光的笑声是响亮的,总是咔咔咔咔的从走廊的尽头“咻”的奔到了另一个尽头。不只是妈妈,其他人一知道他来了,都会轻轻的微笑,一些还会往前摸摸他的小脸蛋。乖巧的光也不骄伶,礼貌地任由大家把他的头发搓乱。连最沉默的那个角落的嬷嬷,每一回听见他的声音,即使没转过头来看,紧棚的肩膀也垂得柔和些。就是因为觉察到这些变化,大家都默许光留在这里久一些,仿佛,光也就是大家的孩子。

毕竟,在这里,清清楚楚迎接死亡的人比糊糊涂涂活着的人多。从这里,一道墙的距离以后,是医院,是生命开始也是生命结束的地方,就这么靠进这里的人们,总是准备自己随时在吐出最后一口气之前被送到那儿去,而且,每一秒逼近。


他让人感到希望

这孩子的特别,在于,让人感觉到希望,忘记了那些拢近的,生死之间的距离。打从光开始上幼儿班开始,妈妈就常常进出隔壁的医院,半年前,就被送到这里,光也上了小学。因此,光常常穿这校服背着书包跑到妈妈的位子傍。“奥卡桑。。。。。”光从一声招呼就转进妈妈的被窝里,听妈妈低声细语, 向妈妈学日语,跟妈妈报告学校的事,在妈妈的被窝里写功课,有时候会调皮的咕咕笑着呵妈妈的痒。多数的时候,妈妈说话总是轻轻柔柔的。如果你在旁偷听他们,仿佛在听着一场快乐的独角戏。

光的身体越长越高,妈妈的床也开始不胜负荷,妈妈的生命也开始薄如羽翼。然而,光,这特别的孩子,总会带不同的欢乐给妈妈。

“妈妈,今天我学会了做彩色贴纸喔。”

“是啊!那是什么呢?”

“那是一种美术。把颜色挤在玻璃纸上面,然后干了,就可以把它拔下来,当成贴纸了。”光从书包里把一盒颜料抽出来,一边比手划脚的解释“科学老师说,光是白色的,但是,它可以变成很多很多的颜色。”妈妈依然笑着听“奥卡桑,光变很多很多的颜色给你看好不好?”

“好啊!”妈妈用力的点点头。嘴角还是眉笔画出的线,只是今天的颜色深了一些。

“奥卡桑,你要画什么?”

“小光喜欢。”

“小光画蝴蝶。”

“好啊!”

整整两个星期,光和妈妈都在做这个结合光学和手工的美术,把一盒颜料都用完了。光把制成的贴纸到处找窗口来贴。连角落的那位婆婆,身旁的那片窗,也添了一张非洲菊的贴纸。


这就是光的颜色

从窗口望出去,盛开的花朵,光的杰作,让隔邻的医院看起来,那些光线仿佛柔和了些。角落的婆婆,在光的非洲菊盛开的一个星期后离开了。而, 光的妈妈也在一个月后离开了。从这里离开的人,是永远的不会在回来了。

光要走了,他看着爸爸,收拾妈妈的遗物,站在床边,静静的,往者已哀,反而要处理未亡者的心情是一件难事,也是我们的责任。我轻轻的扶着光,那小小的却充满能量的头颌。

“医生,这个贴纸,我不把它拔下来。留在这里好吗?”是个蝴蝶,一对五颜六色的闪着,乍看之下,好像要往远处的草场飞去一样。

“好啊,它很漂亮呢。”

“医生,我长大后要当医生。”

“小光很乖,阿姨相信无论你当什么,都是一个会发光发亮的人。像你的名字一样。”

小光被爸爸牵走了,也许我们不会在相见。看他小小但不见轻盈的背影,还真想搂搂他,祝福他顺利的长大。那属于他的生命,会继续的走下去。他也许不懂,他着短短的逗留,却在妈妈的生命里,在这里的每个人的生命里,留下百般灿烂,五颜六色的一刻。 这就是光的颜色。


我的感言:

我在去年看到这篇文章,就深深的被故事里的情节所吸引。。终于可以把报章里的故事在此于你们分享。

在故事里我看到光的呈现,他妈妈的呈现,甚至这位作者的呈现,他们所活出的价值。这就是Linda老师常说的,我们唯一留在这世界上的是:我们如何呈现自己。光带给我的是:勇敢,爱,快乐,坚强,希望,色彩,光明,聪明,才华,善良,谅解,真实。

持续的选择,我的想法,我的言语,我的感受,我的态度, 我的行为,呈现最真实的自己。刚在医院中和爸爸一起度过,对这故事有好多说不完的感触。谢谢光让我学会,希望你们也从故事中也得到启发。

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Big Family Gathering!!

This year I choose to come back early to my home town - Kelantan to celebrate Chinese New Year with my family, as we are from BIG family..... I really has a busy CNY, but full of joy and laughter!! and I believe all of you have an wonderful CNY too.

Wishing you have a prosperous Chinese New Year. May the abundance year of the Tiger shower you and your family with the good health, wealth, Happiness and prosperity! 

** My family, 7 of us plus grandmother.


** 4 Beautiful sister!!

** I am the elder Grandchildren...... My grandmum has total 23 grand children!!



** Do you think my dad really like to play? ....... yellow!! He make all of us laugh in the family reunion dinner.
 

Saturday, January 23, 2010

When you’re going through a difficult time.

When you wonder if you’re making the right choices.

When you wonder how you’ll make it through.

When you wonder if anyone really cares!

 

Take everything a step at a time.

Do what works best for you.

Stay focused on what you want in life.

Move ahead in the direction of Happiness.

Believing in yourself and keep following your Heart.

 

You’re strong and motivated individual

You are a loving and warm person who loves life.

You will rise to meet the challenges that face you.

You’re capable of dealing with any complication in life.


Have courage that you will go through this MOMENT.

Have faith that you will bring brighter to TOMORROW.

Have believe that you will bring hope to FUTURE.

Have trust that you will bring light to the WORLD.

And TODAY definitely is our BEST day!!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Life LIFE to the fullest!!


Each day is precious and so full of wonderful Possibilities. 
Do not waste it by worrying.
Worries will only take your strength away.
Leave your worries behind instead fill your life with JOY and PEACE.
Learn to LOVE and to SHARE.
Enjoy the simple pleasures in this complex world.
Live life to the fullest make each day count for HAPPINESS lies within you.

Monday, December 28, 2009

The Longing 热忱/渴望

I am read a book in the plane while on the way from Singapore to San Francisco, it keep me keep reading as there is so many things that I can learned from it. 

The Author finished every chapter with a poem, I going to share with all of you here.
We can't do anything if we lost our heart, just remember it is always there, sometime we just need to be reminder to bring it back - stay Passion!!

Do not pretend that the Longing has not also lived in you,
Swinging, like a pendulum.
You have been lost, and thieved like a criminal
you heart into the darkness.
But life is tired, Deep Friend, 
of going on without you.
it is like the hand of the mother who has lost the child.
And if you are anything like me, You have been afraid.
And if you are anything like me, You have known your own Courage.
There is room in this boat: 
Take Your Seat.
Take up your paddle, and all of us
~All of us ~
shall row Our HEARTS back HOME.

不要伪装自己没有活在内心中的热忱。
它像巨大而不停在摆动的钟。
因为你已经迷失了,你的心被犯人偷走带入黑暗中。
可是生命是疲倦的,没有你的存在,内心的朋友还是距续走着。
就像母亲失去孩子的双手一样。
如果你和我一样,你曾经害怕的。
如果你和我一样,你知道你带着勇气。
在这个船上是有空间的,请坐下吧!
拿起你的划桨,而我们每一位,
~每一位~
将排列成行,带着我们的心回家

Saturday, December 26, 2009

For the First Time 第一次

For the First time “第一次” 最近常听Linda老师唱这首歌,从她的口中,美丽的姿态,和充满爱的眼神。我发现我爱上了这首歌。它的歌词中的意义是如此的美,和感人,完全带出了Linda老师对她学生所要表达的情感。

有多久了,我们真正的用心看着我们所爱的人的眼睛?
有多久了,我们真在看到他们最真实的一面?
有多久了,我们真正看到他们能成为的人?
你还记得那第一次吗?那是如此的珍贵。
每天都可以是第一次。。。。。

在此我与你们分享这首歌的函意。希望你们会喜欢。

FOR THE FIRST TIME - Rod Stewart

Are those your eyes
是你的双眼吗
Is that your smile
是你的笑容吗
Ive been looking for you forever
我感觉我一直在找寻你
Yet I never saw you before
可是我又不曾见过你
Are these your hand holding mine
是你的双手握着我吗
Now I wonder how I could have been so blind
此刻我在想我为甚么这么盲目
And for the first time, I am looking in your eyes
第一次,我看着你的眼睛
for the first time Im seeing who you are
第一次我看见你是谁
I can't believe how much I see
我没办法相信我看到的有多少
When you're looking back at me
当你回头看我的时侯
Now i understand what love is, love is
现在我终于明白甚么是爱,爱是
For the first time
那个第一次

Can this be real
这是真实吗
Can this be true
这是真相吗
Am I the person I was this morning
我还是今天早上的那个人吗
And are you the same you
而你又是同样的人吗
Its all so strange
真的很奇秒
How can it be
为甚么会这样呢
All along this love was right in front of me
其实,爱一直都存在
And for the first time, I am looking in your eyes
第一次,我看着你的眼睛
for the first time Im seeing who you are
第一次我看见你是谁
I can't believe how much I see
我没办法相信我看到的有多少
When you're looking back at me
当你回头看我的时侯
Now i understand what love is, love is
现在我终于明白甚么是爱,爱是
For the first time
那个第一次

Such a long time ago I had given up
好像好久以前我已经放弃
On finding this emotion ever again
寻找这种感觉
but you're here with me now
可是你现在与我同在
Yes I found you somehow
是的,我真的找到你了
And Ive never been so sure
可是我从来都不确定
And for the first time, I am looking in your eyes
第一次,我看着你的眼睛
for the first time Im seeing who you are
第一次我看见你是谁
I can't believe how much I see
我没办法相信我看到的有多少
When you're looking back at me
当你回头看我的时侯
Now i understand what love is, love is
现在我终于明白甚么是爱,爱是
For the first time
那个第一次

For the first time
那个第一次

Saturday, December 12, 2009

A Reason, A Season or A lifetime!!


I got this message through a friend email... it is so true and feel like sharing with all of you!! 

A REASON, A SEASON OR A LIFETIME:

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

THANK YOU for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

To live a life of Choice, Freedom and Unconditional Love

By Ko Hayashi, translate by Jeff. 
I feel this is powerful message, so wish to share with all of my friends. 

To live a life of choice, freedom and unconditional love is a challenge. We must be willing to take risks. To dare. To change.選擇享受一個活出自由與無條件之愛的人生也算是一種挑戰,所以我們必須要願意冒些風險,勇於面對,敢於改變。
The following quote is most compelling:

引用一段非常令人讚嘆的詩:"Come to the edge, He said. They said: We are afraid.
Come to the edge, He said.
They came. He pushed them,
And they flew . . ."--Guillaume ApollinaireAvant-Garde French Poet

“他說:來到懸崖邊吧。
他們說:我們很害怕呀。
他又說:來到懸崖邊吧。
他們終於來了,他輕輕的推他們,
於是,他們就飛起來了-----“Many people are fearful of change, any kind of change. So they pretend. And
they wear many masks. And they are truly afraid of showing their authentic
selves. They are so concerned with what others might think of them.

有許多的人非常地恐懼與害怕各種不同的改變,所以他們就把自己偽裝起來,開始戴上許多的面具。他們也很害怕表現出自己真實的一面,因為他們非常地在意別人對他們的看法。

What if we were to say that "Actually other people are not that concerned about you. That others are so busy worrying about themselves, and what others might think of them, that they don't have much time or energy to be thinking about you." What if that were true? Then you have been worrying about others' opinions about you needlessly.
要是我們這樣說:“實際上其他的人們真的不會那麼的關注你,他們都在忙著擔心自己的事情,只關心他們自己,他們根本沒有太多的時間或能量放在你的身上。”就算他們真的有注意到你,其實你也不用去在意其他人對你的看法與評價呀!
So that is an illusion that just got shattered.
這是必須要打破的一個迷思。
We say we want Freedom. We is I. . . all of us. Freedom is not a mere concept, nor is it arm chair philosophy. Freedom is an Act. To be truly free, we must live it. And dare to take risks.我們都說我們想要自由,我們包括我……我們大家。自由不單只是一個概念,也不是一個坐而言的理論哲學,自由是一個行動或行為。我們必須要在生活中實踐出來才是真正的自由,而且要膽敢的去冒一些風險!
"Living at risk is jumping off the cliff,and building your wings on the way down."
--Ray Bradbury, author of more than 500 literary works

體驗冒險的生活~~就如同從斷崖上往下跳,
然後在掉落的過程中把你的羽翼建造完成。

We all have heroes. We think heroes are brave and unafraid. The truth is that many women and men who have done heroic deeds have fears like all of us. And still they acted. Because as Linda Chandler teaches us in Core Value Training, "Courage is not the absence of fear. Being courageous is feeling your fears, and stepping through them anyway. That is what true courage is."
我們都有許多心目中的英雄,我們也都認為英雄們都是很勇敢與不會害怕的。但真相是,那些做了非常英勇行為或事蹟的許多女性與男士,他們和我們一樣都會感到害怕與恐懼,只是他們仍然去行動了。這就好像Linda Chandler 在核心價值的課程中教我們的,“並不是恐懼不存在就是勇氣,勇敢的去感覺到自己恐懼的存在,而無論如何也要一步步地穿越過它們(恐懼),這樣子才是真正的勇氣。”
So to live a life of courage, to live at risk . . . is to literally jump off the cliff and build your wings "on the way down".
所以,去享受一個有勇氣的生命吧,去體驗冒險的生活…真的從斷崖上往下跳,然後造好你的羽翼“在掉落的過程中”。
How can you apply that concept to your own life?
如何能把那些概念運用在自己的人生?
If your life is not working the way that you think it should. If you feel unhappy, unfulfilled, bored, and trapped by your current circumstance . . . perhaps it is time to make new choices, make new friends, go to new places, and to grow through new experiences. Now that may seem like a scary thing to do. After all, you could get hurt. You could fail. And you might get lost.
如果你認為你的人生並沒有按照自己的方式來運作。如果你感到不快樂,有志難申,無聊,好像被你目前所處的環境所束縛…等等,這或許是要做出一些新選擇的時候了。去認識新的朋友,去一些新的地方,透過一些新的經驗來自我成長。這當然可能會很像是去做一件令人感覺提心吊胆的事情。在做完這些事之後,你可能會受傷,可能會失敗,甚至也許會迷失自己。
But look at what you might gain: new awareness, a richer life, more vibrant experiences, and significant personal growth. You can choose to hide under your bed covers for the rest of your life, and what kind of life would that be? Hiding away from the world ultimately won't keep you safe. Sooner or later, we mortal human beings will all die.
但是看看你可能會有的收獲:新的覺察,一個富足的人生,充滿新活力的經驗,與具有重大意義的個人成長。當然你們也可以選擇把自己躲在床底下都不出來的人生,哪一種的人生是你要的呢?與世隔絕最終並無法保持你的安穩,因為早晚,我們這些普通的凡人都一定會死去的。
So the real question is: Are you really afraid of dying? Or is it that you are afraid . . . terrified of truly living?
所以,真正的問題是:你是真正的害怕死亡嗎?或是你害怕的是…被生活的真實面所嚇到?
Dare to risk. Dare to live.
勇於面對風險,面對生活。I remember one of our students at a recent core value training program. She was extremely ill with breast cancer. Frail, thin, in constant pain . . . this heroic woman came to class all four days. She never complained. She always wore a smile. Her courage touched me and all of us very deeply.

我記得在不久前的一次核心價值訓練課程中的一位學生,她因為末期乳癌而極端的不舒服,虛弱、消瘦、持續的疼痛…但是這位英勇的女士上完了四天所有的課程。她從來沒有抱怨,臉上總是保持笑容,她的勇氣深深的觸動了我以及在場每一個人的心。She was an excellent student: always present and focused on the lessons. She took extensive notes, she participated fully. She never expressed regret, remorse or anger. She laughed; she cried. Her heart was on display for all of us to be nurtured by how she chose to show up.

她是一位非常優秀的學生:總是活在當下全神貫注在課程上,她做了很多的筆記,她全然的投入課程。她從來沒有表現出遺憾、悔恨或生氣。她用選擇如何呈現出自己的精神展現在大家的面前教育了我們。Then on Sunday morning, she raised her hand to share in front of the whole combined class. I called her up. She moved slowly, but she was determined. We could see that she had lost so much weight. But she had not lost her courage. She spoke that morning in a strong, confident and clear voice. She talked about many things. She spoke of her fight against her disease. She talked about those people she loved. And she thanked her classmates for their support, understanding and love. She said it had helped her tremendously.
最後一天星期日的早上,她舉手表示要在合班上課的所有學生前面分享,我叫她上前來,她踏著緩慢但是卻非常堅定的步伐走到前面。大家都看到雖然她失去了很多的體重,但是她完全沒有失去她的勇氣。她用堅強、自信與清晰的聲音在那天的早上娓娓道來。訴說著關於她許多的事情,如何的對抗她的疾病、那些她所愛著的人們。她也非常感謝同學們的支持、理解與愛,她說這些對她有非常大的幫助。
During her touching talk, there was not a dry eye in the whole audience. We were all crying. What we witnessed before us was a beautiful, brave woman who was proclaiming to us how precious life is. She challenged all of us to live courageously, without illusions, addictions, excuses, neurosis, and escapes. She shared with us how peaceful she felt from being together with all of us.
在她感人的談話過程中,所有的聽眾沒有任何一隻眼睛是乾的,我們全部都流下了感動的淚水。我們都見證了在大家面前的這位美麗而又英勇的女士,告訴我們生命是何等的珍貴呀。她要我們過一個有勇氣生活,遠離幻想、沉迷上癮、藉口、恐懼與逃避。她也分享了當與我們大家在一起時感覺到是多麼的平和與安寧。
After she spoke, everyone got up and lined up to hug her and tell her how her words had moved them. There was a long line of people. I went up to people and whispered in their ears, to be gentle when they hugged her because she was in pain. When I was softly whispering to another participant to remind him to hold her gently . . . she turned to me and said: It's really O.K. This morning I feel no pain. This morning, right now, all I can feel is Love."
當她分享之後,所有的人都站起來排著隊去擁抱她,並且讓她知道她的分享感動了他們。那真是一條很長的隊伍呀!我靠上前去向在排隊的人耳邊輕聲的提醒他們,當擁抱她的時候要輕柔一點,因為她還是很痛的。當我正輕聲的向另一位要擁抱她的人提醒要輕柔一點的時候…她轉過來告訴我說:真的沒關係,今天早上我並沒有感覺到任何的疼痛。在這個早晨,就在當下,我完全可以感受到“愛”。

Her words inspired me. Right then I knew how unconditional love can free us from pain, suffering and all the things that hold us back from accessing the life that we seek, deserve and cherish. Thank You Teo Tang Buey for the lesson you taught me that morning.
她的那句話啟發了我,就在那個當下我瞭解了無條件的愛是如何的能夠把我們從痛苦與病痛中解脫出來,還有那些在背後掌控與束縛著我們的人生,諸如盲目的追尋、認為我們應得到更多與自己並不擁有卻認為很珍貴的東西。真的感謝Teo Tang Buey在那個早上給我上了一課,她教導了我。
Two months later, Teo passed away. Now she is one of our angels looking over us and urging us to live lives of courage, authenticity and unconditional love.

兩個月之後,Teo離開了。現在她是在天上看顧我們的其中一位天使,並且提醒著我們一定要活出一個有勇氣、誠信、與無條件之愛的人生。

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Looking in the Mirror

Awareness is a mirror reflecting the four elements.

Beauty is the heart that generates love and a mind that is open.

The moment during the day of looking in a mirror can be moments of deep awareness. The mirror can serve as a tool for cultivating mindfulness so that we develop a broad capacity to understand and love others. Anyone who maintains awareness in the present moment become beautiful and naturally emanates peace, joy, and happiness. A calm half smile and a loving heart are refreshing, and they allow miracles to unfold. 



When your mind is the clear mirror of meditative awareness, you will know that you are the outward expression of the essence of reality. So please smile, smile with your eyes, not just with your lips. Smile with your whole being, reflecting the four elements in the mirror o f mindful awareness.

Smile from your heart….. you expresses tolerance, compassion and loving kindness.

Monday, May 04, 2009

CV 是自我觉察之路


到底这个课程说些甚么呢?其实是没有实际的答案。我们把它名为“核心价值课程” 对我来说这不是一个课程那么简单。我把它说成“自我觉察之路”。它允许我走向更高的觉察。
CV 允许我打开生命之窗。学会接受一却,接受自己,以同理心
去接受他人而不含任何的批判的。说出来真的很简单,真正要更多每天的练习和努力。

它带领我如何放下自我,更有意识的去觉察我的想法,而这往往是我们争扎或痛苦的起因。学会更多内心世界,去聆听自己内在的声音然后观察外在的改变。当然这需要很多的自我信任。

从觉察的旅途开始,我开始对周围的提升了很多感官,想法,感觉和直觉。深沉的往自己的情绪的起原开始,去理解我的想法和它的真实感。 这是一个深沉去发现自己的旅途。


我了解我所需要的答案其实都在我自己的内心里,我其实要更学会的是把自识化为智慧,那就是去体会更多人生经历。在之前,我常会要得到更多的爱或其它的事,为了去填补我内在的不完美或自己觉得所缺少的。当我选择自己是“完整的”其实我是拥有很多爱的时侯,现在我可以给于更多人爱与拥抱。

“不要去寻找你的人生目的,当你真正完全的去活出生命, 你的人生目的会来敲你的们。”这是我现在所体会到的。当我的内心和自己的核心价值一致的
时侯,我感觉很开心,生命充满意义和热忱。这是我寻找很久的感觉了 ~内心的自由。

当我们很有意识的与核心价值达成一致,或了解活出生命的理由,我们会与更高的能量结合,拥有个人的力量与热忱。 我们的生命就会以全新的一面开始,也更流畅。为甚么常在CV的环境是很重要的,因为这是人生的旅途。需要更多的练习和成为。

当我了解自己更多,然后可以很真的去表达,呈现。得到的是更多的意义,喜悦和生命的满足!当我成为真我时,人与人的关系也更好了,也会完成更多的理想。

CV教会我当下,了解到我们此时此刻所拥有的是现在。

在CV2的色彩学允许我去接受自己和别人。同时在别人和自己身上看到潜能与可能性。从色彩学和时间线的练习,我看清关于我的人生惯性和习惯。

CV3的能量学允许我了解任何一切都是能量的形成和振动。更明确的知道如何操作和转换自己的能量而不去吸受其它的复能量。

在CV里,4大协议扮演很重要的岗位:
1)对你所说的言语纯正无暇。
2)不枉做假设。
3)不要认为所有事情都是针对你。
4)全力以赴,做到最好。

这4大协议在多方面帮了我,当我们不把事情当成
是针对我们的,我们就不把复面的毒素往身体里丢。我们会活得更键康与快乐。

“环境”也是主要的练习之一,当我明白我在CV之前的环境,然后选择跟相信我多过我相信自己的环境里。同时我们可以互相提升与鼓励。从环境的改变让我成长得好快。就像Linda老师常常教导我们的: 我们是现有的环境的反映。

简短来说,CV关于觉醒,觉醒所有在我们身边的可能性,觉醒我们是有选择的,更多的觉醒在活出给充实的人生意图和意义。现在我体验更多的好玩,欢笑和丰富。

还有很多在CV里学习的,有时侯,不同的人在讲师那得到不同的领悟。。。。。我希望我可以分享更多的!非常感恩Linda老师,她不只是我的老师,也是我的妈妈,也是我生命的伙伴,是我的朋友。谢谢你无条件的爱,还有把你的智慧带给全世界。

如果你像了解更多,请写电邮给我 corevalue.evon@gmail.com 我很愿意分享更多。

Core Value (CV)

What is the course about? There are no straight answers to these questions. As we always call Core Value Training, this is no only a training program to me. I called it self awareness journey. It's allow me to move toward my higher awareness.

CV allow me to be more open in outlook in life. Learning to accept what is, accept myself , accept other with compassion and no judgement.  It is easier to said it, to really do it need a lot of daily practice. 

It's guide us how to let go of EGO, and conscious on our own THOUGHTS, which are the root caused of suffering and pain body.  Learn more about my inner world, listen to my heart and my inner voice and watch the outer world change. Of course it requires a lot of self trust.

Beginning of my self awareness journey, I start paying attention to many senses, thoughts, feeling and intuition. Diving deep into my emotions to tap on the sources, seeing my thinking and how it creates the reality. It is a journey of discovering my deepest essence.
I understand that all the answered I needed is just right inside me. All I has to learn more is to access my knowledge to life experience (wisdom). Previously I always wanting for love or some other things to fill in my missing piece, I choose to be "whole" full of love, which I able to give my abundance love and hugs to others now. 

"Don't look for your life purpose, live your life to the fullest and your life purpose will come to knock your door"! This is exactly how i experience right now. Once my heart aligned with my CORE VALUE, I feel so happy, full of meaning and passionate and no tiredness at all. This is the feeling that I had been searching for long long time ~ inner happiness.

When we consciously align with our Core Value or deepest reasons for being, we tap into higher energy, personal power and passion. Our lives begin to flow in new and delightful ways. This is why stay in CV environment is so important, as it is a journey of life! More Practice and become it.

The more I know about myself and express my authentic self, the more meaning, joy and fulfillment i got in life! When I attend to you inner self, "Become authentic Self", a new better relationship , a more fulfilling job will happened. 
CV taught me to be more Present and understand what we own is NOW.

COLOUR WORK in CV2 allow me to accept myself and other. At the same time seeing a lot of potential and possibilities on me and others. From the
 colour work and timeline, I learned about my life pattern & Habits.

ENERGY WORK in CV3 allow me to understand that we are all just a form of energy and vibration. More clarity of how to operate, shifting my energy and not to absorb negative energy. 

THE FOUR AGREEMENT playing a important key in Core Value training: 
1) Be impact-able with your words.
2) Don't make assumption
3) Don't take things personally.
4) Do your best!

This 4 agreement assist me in many sense, when I don't take things personally.... I feel more free and don't any how throw poison in to my own body. I live healthy and happy. 

ENVIRONMENT is a key exerciser too, I understand more about my environment before CV and choose to surrounded myself with the peoples who believe in me more than I believe in myself. At the same time, we able to empower and uplift each others. I grow so much starting from changing my environment. 

Like what Linda Chandler taught me : We are a reflection of our environment that we live in.

In short, CV is about AWAKENING, awaken to all possibilities and potential. Awaken to the choices that are available to us and most of all, awaken to our life to the fullest with meaning and purpose!  I had experience more fun, laughter and abundance now! 
There is a lot more i learned in CV, sometime different peoples will pick up a different piece from our instructor....... I wish I can share more!! Really appreciate my teacher, my Mum, My life journey partner, my friend Linda, Thank you for your unconditional love and wisdom that you bring to this world. 

If you wish to understand more do drop me an email, I will be willing to share more with you.
corevalue.evon@gmail.com


Sunday, April 05, 2009

The Power of NOW!















The world might still be hurting. The world may continue to experience fear. However, if you CHOOSE to focus on your inner vibration, you will have started to understand that the power to change your reality lies within you. If enough of us start to consciously create a peace world, we will experience a global shift towards peace.


The POWER of NOW!

Most of us heard that the past is over.and the future is yet to be. However do we really understand what that means? The NOW is all there is. There is nothing but the NOW. Think of it this way: right now, think of a past event- are you in the past? No, you are in the now thinking of the past event. Now think of a future event, are you actually in the future? No, you are in the “now” thinking of  the future. What if you could time travel? Let’s go back in time to your past event. And ask yourself, “are you in the past?” No, you are in the now. Let’s travel to your future event, are you in the future, no you are in the now.

Anytime we step out of the now, by worrying about past events or wishing and waiting for better future, we are taking ourselves out of our point of power. The power of now. All creation happen in the now.

The past and future do not exist as real time, they are just concepts, memories, thoughts or fantasies that we have in the now. The past and future are an illusion.

The now is and will always be our only point of power of creation. When we are in the now, we are creating, even if we do nothing, we are just creating more of the same things.

When we are in the now , but focusing on either the past “now” or the future now. We are not consciously creating but are living in default or in autopilot. We are wasting time focusing on something that does not exists. If we want to learn from our past now or wish for better future now, we have to create or make changes in the NOW.

The now is all you have.









The SEEDS of the FUTURE are planted in the Present of Today! 

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Mindfulness = Awareness

MINDFULNESS is our ability to be aware of what is going on both inside us and around us. It is the continuous awareness of our bodies, emotions, and thoughts. Through mindfulness, we avoid harming others, and ourselves and we can work wonders. If we live mindfully in everyday life, walk mindfully, are full of love and caring, then we create a miracle and transform the world into a wonderful place.

The object of your mindfulness can be anything. You can look at the sky and breathe in and say. “ Breathing in, I’m aware of the blue sky.” So you are mindful of the blue sky. The blue sky becomes the object of your mindfulness. “Breathing out, I smile to the blue sky.” Smiling is another kind of practice. First of all, you recognize the blue sky as existing. And if you continue the practice, you will see that the blue sky is wonderful. It may be that you’re lived thirty or forty years but you have never seen and touched the blue sky that deeply.

In the Sutra on the Four Establishments of Mindfulness, The Buddha offers for layers of mindfulness practice: Mindfulness of the body, of the emotions, of the mind, and of the objects of mind. Practicing mindfulness at each layer can be the foundation of well being and happiness. When we don’t practice mindfulness, we suffer in our body, our mind, and in our relationships. In practicing mindfulness, we become a peaceful refuge for others and ourselves. When the seed of mindfulness in us is watered, it can grow into enlightenment, understanding, compassion and transformation. The more we practice mindfulness, the stronger this seed will grow.

Clarity flows from mindfulness. When we are mindful, we can practice right thinking and right speech. With the energy of mindfulness, we can always return to our true home, the present moment.

The Chinese character for mindfulness reveals it’s meaning. The upper part of the character means “now” and the lower part stand for “Mind” or “heart”. The Vietnamese word for mindfulness, chan niem, means to be truly in the present moment. Mindfulness helps us to come back to the here and now, to be aware of what is going on in the present moment, and to be in touch with the wonders of life.

Friday, November 07, 2008

Meaningful Trip

I called my Mum "Are you thinking to go somewhere for a short re-trip?" Her replied.. OK, I am quite free ... me & my brother quickly arrange for a trip to Penang

Really not easy to let my parent out of his comfort zone, my mum will always reply, I got too many things to do. Not free!! That why I always call her Busy Women or 老板娘. she will show me her big SMILE.

Me & Kev arrive Penang earlier then we waiting for them over there. We stay at Gurney hotel 2 bedroom apartment. It is great with the have small kitchen, dinning & living area.  I had a lot of 1st time experience with my family... 1st time whole family watching movie in the Cinema, 1st time staying in the sauna room together, 1st time sleep in the same hotel together, 1st time travel together... this time we have so much laughter, my dad is the one who like to make us laugh.

Although Kev's joke with me playing together with my sister in big bathtub... I feel so great as I never really play with them in this way, especially my younger sister, when I leave my home town, she not born yet. 

Actually my mother always had this concerned of my father health issue, but after this trip, they're more open minded and planning for next trip to Thailand. Yeah! 

Since I am 19 year old, one of my dream is bringing my parent to travel, but I always think that need to go far far away... 
I keep on saving money for "ONE DAY" . Like what teacher Linda always shared " What are we waiting for?" 

JUST DO IT!! Don't wait for ONE DAY to come, we don't what will happened on tomorrow, so live today to the fullest. 

Guest what! our relationship grow on this trip, My two little sister use to very afraid on my elder brother, because he always act like big brother... and now he is more soft, light and we able to hugs each other in the family.

Thanks to CV, beside me putting a love energy in my family, Kev & my sister Emily help a lot too.

Emily will be joining CV2 soon in Kuching... I believe she will have new inside again. Yeah! 

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

谢谢你们出现在我生命当中!

今天有好多好多感觉,我花一点时间收拾我和Kev这两年在CV收到的信件。

我非常感恩CV家人对我们的爱戴,从中看到了我们的成长过程,也觉察到老师所说的,其实我们真正拥有的是如何呈现自己,How we show up?说得容易,可是我却在信中看到了一切。

好奇秒的经过,从可爱行,漂亮行。。。到最真,最透明的真正的朋友/家人。CV家人在信中的提升,让我们更坚持,更有勇气的往前走。 你们的改变是我们最好的礼物。

当中我看到了两封信是最多感触的,Jick(广华)和 Jessie 给我的信,他们俩人在今年的7 月和8 月离开了。可是信里的鼓励是那么的有价值和生命力的。他们的精神永远与我们同在,也扮演了我生命中的一部分。
谢谢我亲爱的朋友与家人们, 谢谢你们出现在我生命当中。  

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Take only Photos, Leave only Bubbles

Today I read a  magazine about the Projecs- abroad organization to protect the corals,reefs and nature. I have totally agreed on all the information provided by them…. This is really true and facts.

There is a lot of negative impact on the environment is more apparent today than ever before.Unsustainable development, a rapidly growing population, exploitation of natural resources, high pollution levels, over-hunting of animals….. these are just some of the ways in which man has abused and is abusing the Earth. 

The consequeces of our actions are serious. In destroying natural and causing the extinction of animal species, the effects of which will be suffered by future generations.

Reef Facts

Corals are living organisms which evolved 200 million years ago, making humans very young with only 10,000 years on the Earth. There are 700 species of corals worldwide providing habitats to 4,000 species of fish

Corals grow incredibly sowly, no more than 10cm per year. The great barrier Reef in Australia is the longest reef, extending 2,300km long and has taken millions of years to build.

The Coral reef protects the coast from storms and tsunamis. At present: 20% of coral reefs are effectively destroyed! 24% are surviving but in critical condition and under imminent collapse! 26% are threatened by man’s activities.

What we must do:

1)   Choose Greenfins accredited dive operators

2)   Use mooring buoys, not anchors

3)   Buoyany Control – improve your buoyancy contol when driving, wear a floatation device when snorkeling, lie flat in the water and keep your legs straight, kick from the hips rathes that the knees, do not use your fins to kick corals.

4)   Learn about the Respect the reef.

Do not do:

1)   Feeding Fish – It is bad practice to feed reef fish as it changes their feeding behavior and they stop eating algae. This then overgrows the corals and kills the reefs.

2)   Seafood Restaurant – Boycott restaurants which serve dishes of endangered species such as turtle soup or steak, shark steak and shark fin soup.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Welcome Back..... EVON!!!

Hi all my blog kakis, I have been a while (6 months) never access or write anything on my blog until recently received a few text message from my friends… they are from Singapore, KL & Kelantan. They always get to know my situation through my blog….

One of the message show “Hi my dear friend, how are you? No news from you recently even the blog also not updated, are you all right? Well take good care, many of your blog reader also concern about you, and I miss you always”. There is only a short message but I feel so touched.

Since Chinese New year, from March till now we always on the road.... both of us travel from Malaysia - Kuching, Shenzhen, Hong Kong, Brunei, Thailand coordinating for Core Value & Graduate Program.

I don’t know how to describe my feeling over pass 6 months, I felt so fulfilled and live my every single moment with happiness and abundant.  Really appreciate to be in this world to contribute and adding Value. Thank you everyone showing up in my life & Core Value teams especially our loving Teacher Linda & Ko. 

Recently, I went to one of my best friend father funeral in Penang Over there I met quite a lot of WBG friends, some of them I think the longer we never met is about 2 years.  They are very different right now, not about the outer change and more on inner change.  Time flied, from what my friend share about their challenge and the incident that she/he had been go through and overcome, I realize that we all grow and in our own growing path… in our body, mental, spiritual.


Peoples become more vulnerable & humble when they transfer their knowledge into experience. It becomes Wisdom. So we learned so much from each other, because in our life everyone showing up in front of us, they are my teacher. Appear in my life to teach me a lesson.

My awareness is not necessary to wait to see each other only when something big happened, I choose to spend time to connect and keep in touch with them, That’s what friend are for…….

Today Message : BALANCE

I always asked myself what is my today message... so the articles come across...

Balance your time between work, play, spirituality, Exercise and relationships.
We understand that you're busy with many earthly demand on your time. Whenever our schedules become too occupied, our energy drops. Lowered energy creates the illusion that there isn't enough time in the day, so vicious cycle of time limitation ensues.

Adding regular doses of meditation, exercise & play to your days!! Balancing your life helps you to grow and feel joy. If you feel overwhelmed by your responsibilities,  be present... don't hesitate to ask universe to lift your burden. Make a Choice. You will have an wonderful moment!!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Great Time together with My Family!!

Happy Chinese New Year & Gong Xi Fa Cai!

I believe that a lot of peoples having their great family reunion during Chinese New Year! ME TOO! Me and Kev spending time with Kev's Parent at JB for Reunion dinner.... we drive a long long way.. 10 hours back to my home town - Kelantan.

I miss my Parent, brothers and sisters... the last visit is September. 1st things I did when I saw them.. I give them a big big Hugs, I think they are now quite use to it, only my dad, he is a bit resisting, haha! but I told him a lot of great wish.. so he accepts my HUGS.

During CNY, we went to one of the beautiful beach..Mhmm! we really have fun there!
and my two cuties sister, nobody believe that I have such a young sister, the youngest sis only 11 year old and another one is 15 year old. This time, I talk to both of them, I realize that they grow a lot.....Wow! Time flies!Wishing everyone of our friend and CV familys have ultimate health & beauty. Year of Rat bringing you with a lots of Laughter, love and always live in abundance!